Missed cell today and did work.
I think it was kind of productive cos I finished all my science :)
But I MISS CELL ): and GOD!
Although theres qt and stuff to be perfectly honest i cant rlly feel the presence.
Well i guess its kinda hard like when youre surrounded by 5 other roommates???
Oh wells cant wait for Sunday!
I dont think I'll be able to stand missing cell next week again though it'll be even CLOSER to maj mods.
Hahaha.

Theres like super alot of things to do!
Fitness testing must train up, major mods must mug mug mug, then cdp just nice must be those very annoying spend alot of time on it kind when i dont even think it develops my character and i think its a really wrong timing cos we all being v stressed out people right now and we have to find time to make marshmallows wth -.-

And today went off very late cos of physio and swimming mass screening.
i was late for physio!
cos i was in music room and i lost track of time and suddenly it was 3.40 and i was AHHHHH. :)
But noraida didnt like kill me so yeah . happy :)
swimming mass screening?
passed.
but the pool is damn gross cos theres like multitudes of bugs dying in it. -.-

ANYWAYYYY
Grad night was on thursday.
The vids and stuff were rlly touching and I bet if i were one of the graduates sure tear one . haha.
Well i got 3 years to go -.-
Ohyeahhhh and i was ushering.
Which meant blazer and tie and skirt and court shoes.

at least 300 people told me my skirt was too short but mrs lu din say anything which was unusual.
i think she just doesnt wanna bother about me anymore cos the year is almost over and that prob means i wont be in next year haha.
i mean like, im very not her type lah.
super neat hair, super tidy room, super attentive in class etc.
my hair is always messy, my room is forever like kena bomb(eh i cleared my table ok! took me hour plus!), and i er, pretty much sleep in class alot. haha.
i think the only reason why i got picked in the first place is just cos i like doing well and helping out and serving etc.
but still, cmi as the perfect student lah. haha.
at the start people told me to be a councillor get close to mr mak or mrs lu and i didnt agree.
but i think its actl kinda true lah.
so i expect myself to kena fired by next year cos both of them dont like me.
heck, im just not a councillor type.

oh and mdm ivy confiscated my hairband and clipped my hair up -.-
which revealed my mickey mouse ears! hahaha heckkkk.

-dizzy- o.o

i rlly need a camera because pictureless posts are damnnn boring and noone wants to read pictureless blogs.
i bet i have like 2 readers at the most -.-
but oh well i shall wait.
not like i dare have a camera anyw.
i got phobia alrd.

oh and DANA,
the scratch is KARMA HAHAHHAHAHA.
:) i know you love me. 

/mum just realised today's friday -.-

okay. i think ive said alot and i think this is a boring post but i dont care!

btw,
on facebook go to settings > language > english (pirate)
it will make you smile :)

 Happy birthday SYAFIQAH :D
Although you purposely make me open and close your upper cupboard door to laugh at me i still love you. :)

-no pic, spoiler-

Happy belated birthday TIMMY TIM KOR .
Idk what to say about you lah.
Stop getting pink shirts with palm trees please? :D

-waiting for sister to faster upload pictures-

see, pictureless birthday wishes are so boring. tsk tsk.

------------------------------anyway -----------------------------------

Currently theres someone whose going through something very tough and idk how to help her.
Idk whether she wants to talk about it, or she wants to settle it herself, or whether she herself doesnt know what she wants to do :/
I just hope she cheers up soon because it hurts to see her like that,
Appearing to be okay, but her eyes usually bright and happy and crazy are now empty. Quiet.

And when i think of the cause i feel like kneeing his balls and punching his face and slapping him upside down and throwing him into the sea and see whether he swims back. Idiot.

I find it ridiculous that there are so many assholes like that in this world.
I dont understand why most of the time its girls who end up hurt.
And guys like totally find it easy to totally diss the girl and purposely being a freakin meanass and going for some other girl.
I dont see why its always girls who end up crying themselves to sleep every night and its guys who just treat it like nothing happened so easily.
And then out of the pool of bastards maybe 2 of 3 after getting ditched by their girlfriend like 5 months later, knowing their ex is still emoing about them, start saying shit like they regret or they still love the girl etcetc.

Some girls tell the guy to eff off. ( good job! )
Others cant help but give in.

And end up hurt again.

I dont want to bother rambling on hahahaha. 
Basically,
Guys are assholes. :)
































not all though. haha

 yknow what im not gonna post about what i wanted to post now.
i might tomorrow or whenever idk.
right now im just gng sleep.


i hate feeling alone like i've been for quite awhile.
i hate it i hate it i hate it.
damn being alone damn being unhappy damn being lonely.
i look like that stupid lonely penguin. lol.

I HAVE ALOT TO POST ABOUT
So i shall think of my sequence..

Prolly have a few posts cos i needa friends-only some hohoho.

This post, however, is about how awesome God is and is not private cos vikkinotashamedofGod :D

God is awesome cos He knows exactly how we feel and exactly what we're going through,
even better than we know ourselves.
God knows what we're thinking even though sometimes we dont even hear whats going through our heads.
God can understand exactly whats bugging us even when we dont want to admit it.

God knows the solution out of our problem.
And God knows us inside out, more than we know ourselves.
He knows what we can do and what we cannot.
And He does not allow problems we cannot overcome enter our lives.
It's a matter of stepping up from who we are alone, powerless living by our own strength.
A matter of finding ourselves in Him,
Being who we are in Him, 
Leaning on Him,
And then reigning victorious all because of HIM.

Most importantly God loves us.
Despite whatever we do or say or how many times we let Him down,
Or doubt His love,
Or try to look somewhere else,
Or get bored of Him for awhile only to come back running for His love that is irreplaceable,
God's love is  beyond reason, His grace so abundant.

"He died to pay a debt He didn't owe, 
Because we had a debt we couldn't pay."

 Served in It's a Small World today!
The kids are so uber cute.
I want to hug gabriel.
Damn cute lah!
Chubby, rosy cheeks, sunhat, sleeveless shirt with his round stomach protruding, shorts, sandals, and a PENGUIN BACKPACK.
DAMNNN CUTE !!!

Anyw, made me start rmbring everything in the past , and i remember alot of details. Amazing how i did with my stm now lah. Hahaha.

Then after that went to bedokmacs and eat w sarah then we go shop :D
plan supposed to be different but got kinda screwed up but whatever was disappointed but still enjoyed in the end i guess :)
argued with somebody but didnt rlly change my mood much haha. whateeever it is it'll blow over anyw.

I REALLY WANT PHOTOSHOPPP.
And a camera!
Photoshop is so awesome it can change some fugly picture into magnificence!
And theres no point having photoshop without photos right?
and how to take photos?
CAMERA! 
rahhh. hahahaha.

I must find time to sit down and type a rlly long post about D&G like chan suggested :D

 I heart God manymany :)
You never fail to amaze me, love me, cheer me up, encourage me, and give me all that I'll ever need.
Ever. :)
You know me better than I know myself, You can take away my hurt and pains when I don't even know whats happening.
It's like I didn't know what was wrong but You did and all I know is that I felt lighter. Happier and stuff.
Basically You're just awesome lah. Hahaha.
I love God :)


ANYWAYYYYY
Learnt some stuff from Hweeting today.
Excited excited. I wanna be able to do praise & worship sooooon ! :D
I forgot to ask her what power chords are. Oh well. Maybe next week or I'll ask Moolia or Fat bowler sooner :)

Oh ya speaking about fat bowler..
Fat bowler wasn't happy cos I said he wasn't my best friend so the nice nice me said okay you can be my step best friend then fat bowler perangai then dont want. NVM hahaha then fat bowler quiet time very noisy one. then very extra when someone called Fat MUSCULAR swimmer want to talk on the phone. Then after that finally thought he quiet already, but oh he was MESSAGING. hahaha. oh but at least in the end he rlly quiet time-d and then offed the light.
Nice ending? NO.
Then fat bowler almost killed muscular swimmer with his mighty weight . Hahahahah.

I'm going out to be out whole day later!
1. Go serve at childrens church with E
2. Go shop-travelling w L, S, O.



PS I love esther lame many hohoho

Today after lunch i ate a watermelon that was damn sweet. :)

HAHA okay thats it for random first liner.
Science presentation today after school.
When were we told?
YESTERDAY! yayyyyyy -.-

okay well at least im done with my part ?

Lalalaalalallalalala.]
Ohya i shared yesterday.
Scary. V scary. But satisfying i guess? (:

59 days to goooooo!! :)
okay its NOT pronounced as like
GUUUU. :)

laLALALALALAlaslallaalalal

MY NAME IS MARY HAHAHAHAHA