Missed cell today and did work.
I think it was kind of productive cos I finished all my science :)
But I MISS CELL ): and GOD!
Although theres qt and stuff to be perfectly honest i cant rlly feel the presence.
Well i guess its kinda hard like when youre surrounded by 5 other roommates???
Oh wells cant wait for Sunday!
I dont think I'll be able to stand missing cell next week again though it'll be even CLOSER to maj mods.
Hahaha.

Theres like super alot of things to do!
Fitness testing must train up, major mods must mug mug mug, then cdp just nice must be those very annoying spend alot of time on it kind when i dont even think it develops my character and i think its a really wrong timing cos we all being v stressed out people right now and we have to find time to make marshmallows wth -.-

And today went off very late cos of physio and swimming mass screening.
i was late for physio!
cos i was in music room and i lost track of time and suddenly it was 3.40 and i was AHHHHH. :)
But noraida didnt like kill me so yeah . happy :)
swimming mass screening?
passed.
but the pool is damn gross cos theres like multitudes of bugs dying in it. -.-

ANYWAYYYY
Grad night was on thursday.
The vids and stuff were rlly touching and I bet if i were one of the graduates sure tear one . haha.
Well i got 3 years to go -.-
Ohyeahhhh and i was ushering.
Which meant blazer and tie and skirt and court shoes.

at least 300 people told me my skirt was too short but mrs lu din say anything which was unusual.
i think she just doesnt wanna bother about me anymore cos the year is almost over and that prob means i wont be in next year haha.
i mean like, im very not her type lah.
super neat hair, super tidy room, super attentive in class etc.
my hair is always messy, my room is forever like kena bomb(eh i cleared my table ok! took me hour plus!), and i er, pretty much sleep in class alot. haha.
i think the only reason why i got picked in the first place is just cos i like doing well and helping out and serving etc.
but still, cmi as the perfect student lah. haha.
at the start people told me to be a councillor get close to mr mak or mrs lu and i didnt agree.
but i think its actl kinda true lah.
so i expect myself to kena fired by next year cos both of them dont like me.
heck, im just not a councillor type.

oh and mdm ivy confiscated my hairband and clipped my hair up -.-
which revealed my mickey mouse ears! hahaha heckkkk.

-dizzy- o.o

i rlly need a camera because pictureless posts are damnnn boring and noone wants to read pictureless blogs.
i bet i have like 2 readers at the most -.-
but oh well i shall wait.
not like i dare have a camera anyw.
i got phobia alrd.

oh and DANA,
the scratch is KARMA HAHAHHAHAHA.
:) i know you love me. 

/mum just realised today's friday -.-

okay. i think ive said alot and i think this is a boring post but i dont care!

btw,
on facebook go to settings > language > english (pirate)
it will make you smile :)

 Happy birthday SYAFIQAH :D
Although you purposely make me open and close your upper cupboard door to laugh at me i still love you. :)

-no pic, spoiler-

Happy belated birthday TIMMY TIM KOR .
Idk what to say about you lah.
Stop getting pink shirts with palm trees please? :D

-waiting for sister to faster upload pictures-

see, pictureless birthday wishes are so boring. tsk tsk.

------------------------------anyway -----------------------------------

Currently theres someone whose going through something very tough and idk how to help her.
Idk whether she wants to talk about it, or she wants to settle it herself, or whether she herself doesnt know what she wants to do :/
I just hope she cheers up soon because it hurts to see her like that,
Appearing to be okay, but her eyes usually bright and happy and crazy are now empty. Quiet.

And when i think of the cause i feel like kneeing his balls and punching his face and slapping him upside down and throwing him into the sea and see whether he swims back. Idiot.

I find it ridiculous that there are so many assholes like that in this world.
I dont understand why most of the time its girls who end up hurt.
And guys like totally find it easy to totally diss the girl and purposely being a freakin meanass and going for some other girl.
I dont see why its always girls who end up crying themselves to sleep every night and its guys who just treat it like nothing happened so easily.
And then out of the pool of bastards maybe 2 of 3 after getting ditched by their girlfriend like 5 months later, knowing their ex is still emoing about them, start saying shit like they regret or they still love the girl etcetc.

Some girls tell the guy to eff off. ( good job! )
Others cant help but give in.

And end up hurt again.

I dont want to bother rambling on hahahaha. 
Basically,
Guys are assholes. :)
































not all though. haha

 yknow what im not gonna post about what i wanted to post now.
i might tomorrow or whenever idk.
right now im just gng sleep.


i hate feeling alone like i've been for quite awhile.
i hate it i hate it i hate it.
damn being alone damn being unhappy damn being lonely.
i look like that stupid lonely penguin. lol.

I HAVE ALOT TO POST ABOUT
So i shall think of my sequence..

Prolly have a few posts cos i needa friends-only some hohoho.

This post, however, is about how awesome God is and is not private cos vikkinotashamedofGod :D

God is awesome cos He knows exactly how we feel and exactly what we're going through,
even better than we know ourselves.
God knows what we're thinking even though sometimes we dont even hear whats going through our heads.
God can understand exactly whats bugging us even when we dont want to admit it.

God knows the solution out of our problem.
And God knows us inside out, more than we know ourselves.
He knows what we can do and what we cannot.
And He does not allow problems we cannot overcome enter our lives.
It's a matter of stepping up from who we are alone, powerless living by our own strength.
A matter of finding ourselves in Him,
Being who we are in Him, 
Leaning on Him,
And then reigning victorious all because of HIM.

Most importantly God loves us.
Despite whatever we do or say or how many times we let Him down,
Or doubt His love,
Or try to look somewhere else,
Or get bored of Him for awhile only to come back running for His love that is irreplaceable,
God's love is  beyond reason, His grace so abundant.

"He died to pay a debt He didn't owe, 
Because we had a debt we couldn't pay."

 Served in It's a Small World today!
The kids are so uber cute.
I want to hug gabriel.
Damn cute lah!
Chubby, rosy cheeks, sunhat, sleeveless shirt with his round stomach protruding, shorts, sandals, and a PENGUIN BACKPACK.
DAMNNN CUTE !!!

Anyw, made me start rmbring everything in the past , and i remember alot of details. Amazing how i did with my stm now lah. Hahaha.

Then after that went to bedokmacs and eat w sarah then we go shop :D
plan supposed to be different but got kinda screwed up but whatever was disappointed but still enjoyed in the end i guess :)
argued with somebody but didnt rlly change my mood much haha. whateeever it is it'll blow over anyw.

I REALLY WANT PHOTOSHOPPP.
And a camera!
Photoshop is so awesome it can change some fugly picture into magnificence!
And theres no point having photoshop without photos right?
and how to take photos?
CAMERA! 
rahhh. hahahaha.

I must find time to sit down and type a rlly long post about D&G like chan suggested :D

 I heart God manymany :)
You never fail to amaze me, love me, cheer me up, encourage me, and give me all that I'll ever need.
Ever. :)
You know me better than I know myself, You can take away my hurt and pains when I don't even know whats happening.
It's like I didn't know what was wrong but You did and all I know is that I felt lighter. Happier and stuff.
Basically You're just awesome lah. Hahaha.
I love God :)


ANYWAYYYYY
Learnt some stuff from Hweeting today.
Excited excited. I wanna be able to do praise & worship sooooon ! :D
I forgot to ask her what power chords are. Oh well. Maybe next week or I'll ask Moolia or Fat bowler sooner :)

Oh ya speaking about fat bowler..
Fat bowler wasn't happy cos I said he wasn't my best friend so the nice nice me said okay you can be my step best friend then fat bowler perangai then dont want. NVM hahaha then fat bowler quiet time very noisy one. then very extra when someone called Fat MUSCULAR swimmer want to talk on the phone. Then after that finally thought he quiet already, but oh he was MESSAGING. hahaha. oh but at least in the end he rlly quiet time-d and then offed the light.
Nice ending? NO.
Then fat bowler almost killed muscular swimmer with his mighty weight . Hahahahah.

I'm going out to be out whole day later!
1. Go serve at childrens church with E
2. Go shop-travelling w L, S, O.



PS I love esther lame many hohoho

Today after lunch i ate a watermelon that was damn sweet. :)

HAHA okay thats it for random first liner.
Science presentation today after school.
When were we told?
YESTERDAY! yayyyyyy -.-

okay well at least im done with my part ?

Lalalaalalallalalala.]
Ohya i shared yesterday.
Scary. V scary. But satisfying i guess? (:

59 days to goooooo!! :)
okay its NOT pronounced as like
GUUUU. :)

laLALALALALAlaslallaalalal

MY NAME IS MARY HAHAHAHAHA

 RIGHT NOW I AM VERY VERY HAPPY BECAUSE 
I AM GOING TO EAT FOOD AND I AM VERY LOVED. :D

( DETERMINATION, )

Hols are ending soon!
Very reluctant to go back to school but oh well :/
Lalalalalala.
I don't really know what else to say.
i love chan and mingli and e397 and GOD. :DDD

Two is better than one. - Boys like girls feat. Taylor Swift
I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey
You know this could be something
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

'Cause maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one

I remember every look upon your face,
The way you roll your eyes, the way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everythings okay
And finally now, we're leaving

And maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one

Yeah, yeah

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey

Maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking

Oooh I can't live without you
'Cause baby two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And I've figured out with all that's said and done
Two, is better than one
Two is better than one

my new favourite song :)

I feel like it's pointless to blog already because i no longer have random deep thoughts that i need to rant about.
Other thoughts I have are too personal to blog about.
Hahahaha.
Funny how I dont have random deep thoughts already.
I don't wanna try too hard to think -.-
Cos then its not genuinely RANDOM anymore. 
It would be like, forced.
Hahahaha im not making any sense. 
Nvm!

( keep the faith, )

Rain, rain, go away,
Come again another day,
Little children want to play need to run,
Rain, rain, go away.. (cos theres fitness test next week)

72 days.
Ain't no mountain high enough. :)

i just had a random thought!
like what, 5 minutes after some damn bored post?

its about liking and loving. 
not at all the bgr way though.

often liking is considered synonymous to loving,
or like a downgraded version of loving.
in the same way loving is usually considered an upgraded version of liking.

but i kinda think they're two totally different things.

isnt it possible to love without liking?
though its hard but its what i want to do!
i dont like this person but i still want to love the person, care for the person, meet the person's needs and reach out to the person.
EVEN THOUGH HE/SHE CAN PISS MY BUTT OFF. :)

I cant believe how horribly long i took to think about this -.-
Aim to love, not to like?
Hmm. just random (?) thoughts. i shall read to see if i am correct :)

now the question is,
is it possible to like without loving?

Poll #1455605
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 0

what should the poll question be?

ATTN!
BEFORE YOU WONDER WHY I HAVE SUCH A STUPID POLL ON MY POST READ TO THE END MUAHAHAH

Hahaha. Since I have to choose one i shall post. :D
I rlly need to go run or sweat like mad somehow because if not i seriously cannot eat at all.

K lah not at all, but if like you drop from 5 meals a day to 2 its like quite different dont you think ahhaha.
I changed my layout :)
thefulcrum makes awesome layouts please.

Lalalala im bored.
And i still really really like the lyrics of hummingbird! :D
its a really nice song.
i hope people who see the textbox at the side dont think im lesbian -.-

haha oh well.

i rlly dont want holidays to end!
like so sian to go back to school.
SIGH.
oh well. reality begins again starting monday :/

laalalaalalalallalalaalalalalalalalalalalalLALALALALALLALALAokstopit.okokstopping.

AHHHH i am damn ;akjfhgarfhadf bored now .
Sian i want to go out.
Ok i shall message some netball babies and see whose free :D

oh and i feel like xploring lj stuff!
apparently you can put poll ? 
hmmmm..
what should the question be?
HAHA thats a question! awesomeness okok im gonna put a poll on what the poll question should be AHAHAHAHA.

black and gold by sam sparro is stuck in my head!
just not sam sparro's voice but narelle's haha.
listen listen listen. it's a good song :) 

went to CLEMENTI today to jam/do work with Narelle, Ben, Chris.
i suck ttm but i like to learn :)

i like narelle's voice, guitar and skills!
and she can play bass which is very cool. :D
wonder if black and gold's still stuck in her head ahaha

Ohohohoh and ben taught me drums ABIT. 
Damn hard can. But i shall practice :)
He did the most work which is according to him still very little. 
ok lah quite true hahaha.

Chris?
Full of nonsense as usual . hahaha .
So much nonsense i lazy type or try to remember.
All i rmb is narelle telling him that he's very annoying . :)

ok i really dont know what to say alrd.
i think alot lesser nowadays.
im wondering if thats a good or bad thing. haha.
i miss thinking deeply.

hahaha, i find it funny that guilt stopped me from downloading stuff 

 FINALLY met up with 6o people.
Wished it was whole class but oh well.
Peggy, Jann, Ting, Oli, Liz, Sarah, Marin, Ryo, Lou, Mal, Zach, John, Pk!
I HAVENT SEEN PRAKASH FOR LIKE WTFZXZX LONG PLEASE.
Little idiot still tiny and annoying. Threw like 3 giganormous sandballs at me -.-
Louis has like helix piercing and two earlobe piercing, Ryo pierced the other day we met up.
Johnathon is still tiny.
AND MALCOLM IS STILL THE CUTEST THING IN THE WORLD! <3

Peggy and Jannelle's hair grew lots.
Sports sch people sports sch people...
Marin actl uses vulgarities now. HAHAHAH.
Still looks as cute and innocent as before though.

I WANNA POST PICTURES!
I shall patiently wait for Sarah to upload em (;
Ohya! When you go Siloso, swim over to the other side.
THE SAND IS AWESOMEEEEE. :D

Got alot small random things that happened but i lazy type haha so nvm.
Basically, nowadays many guys in Singapore are either gay, horny or guailan.
Or they think that by passing stupid comments they appear humorous/can turn girls on. HAHA.

I'm going to clementi tomorrow. Alone!
Damn near sia! -.-
Ok la but worth it (;

Ok idk what to post alrd.
CUT.


Edit/
Hummingbird is a super sweet song!

Hummingbird- Nevershoutnever
I like you
Girl you don't got nothing to prove to me
I know that times have been rough for the both of us
But i'll pray
for a change
You see this world has lots to offer,
but in time in will go dark and if this love is what we say it is
I'm sure we will go far
and with a girl as sweet as you
there's not much else I can do
but fall for you
You know that I'm a wreck
And You know I cant breathe
At the edge of my seat with each word
As the months turn into years
just know that i will wait here
For you
Cause I prayed for a change
You see this world has lots to offer,
but in time it will go dark if this love is what we say it is
I'm sure we will go far
And with a girl as sweet as you
There's not much else I can do
but fall for you
(for you)
(for you)
(for you)

Dreams are interesting.
Cos they can be really really nice or the scariest horriblest terriblest things ever.
Or just pure huh .  
Like if you appear as a 5 year old monkey who can beat 16 year olds at chess and doesn't talk and keeps pushing people away.
HAHA.

Yesterday went to Bobo's house to attempt at making chocolate marshmallows?
Result?
EPIC FAIL! HAHAHAHAHAHA.
Wish I had pictures or could put like smell clips on internet you will laugh your ass off!
But oh well. Haha it was funny.

Hweeting's gonna "impart skills" she learnt from Poh to me on Friday before cg! Yay. Happyhappyhappy. :D

Oh and got quite a shock this morning o.o
Sigh, why didn't you just say earlier?
Oh well at least its not too late.
I hope everything will turn out fine tomorrow. :/
By faith everything will turn out great tomorrow. (:


ps: ESTHER LAM GET WELL SOON!

Hello i am at olivia's house now! :D
Actually i have nothing to say but i felt like postinggggg.

OH YA!

sentosa outing timing has been pushed later as tk girls have training till 12. :)

so now confirmed:

Vivocity, 1.30pm on Tuesday! 
please please please try to come :) 
msg either 82004486 (nurse wu) or 91515546 (me) to confirm if youre coming thanks! 

xoxo. :)
ps: rubber bands break easily. hahaha.